Sara's Plaque

This is the plaque that is in the ground under Sara's tree. I finally got over and had a camera to take a picture. I love how it turned out.

A new one- by me.

I recently finished this lapghan. I used the left over yarn from Connor's baby blanket. It is nice colors and a larger size good for a man. The colors I made my first lapghan from are kinda bright and girly so I had to even things out a bit. I've been having a hard time making lapghans.. not sure why . I know I need to get going again. During the move my hubby had the totes full of lapghans donated to date and that kinda sparked me to finish this one. Thank you to everyone who has helped me. I'm still here and still plugging along. Please note the new address on the blog. I'm still accepting donations of any kind. Still hard at work trying to get Sara's goal accomplished but I think she was right 2010 is realistic. Lil bugger was a smart one for her age. I still miss her everyday. Hard to believe she would be graduating 8th grade next month if she was still with us. Aly keeps me going we will enjoy her school successes. But thought of Sara are always right on the edge of the surface.. the what if's. They can make you crazy, in good and bad ways.

Yesterday was another reminder.

I really wanted to do a post on here yesterday. I couldn't bring myself to do it. Sara would've turned 14. With all the happiness around the family with the birth of Connor we still paused to remember we should be celebrating Sars's second year of being a teenager. She was just heading into womanhood when she was taken from us. I was looking forward to so many things with her getting older. School dances and such. She so enjoyed going to see plays in Chicago. Wicked was her favorite. I never got to see Wicked but she did!! Twice I believe.
Happy Birthday Saraboo. Aunt Sue loves and misses you, thank you for helping your mom and dad and the rest of the family heal by picking out Connor for us to love. God must have great plans for him. We know you helped send him to us.

Happy Birthday!!

Connor William came into the world this morning at 2:06 am. He weighed 8lb 10 oz. Mom and baby are doing great. Mom also said he doesn't look like his sister or brother. I can't wait to go see him this afternoon. I will post pictures asap.

Still here... hope you are also.

Well this new baby has taken my free time and will probably continue to do so once he arrives. Sara's new baby brother is due to arrive at anytime! His blanket has been very time consuming but my sister loves it and is so grateful. I will post a photo once it's complete.

I think of Sara all the time and know how excited she would be about the new baby. That reassures me that she is ok with Aunt Sue taking a little break from making our blankets. I have a bunch of squares to sew together. I have them in a box ready to go. I also have a good supply of left over yarn in (male) colors I plan to use soon.

I thought Sara was way off with her 2010 target date. The more I think about it she was right on target! Miss you sweety.. I know you are watching over us all!!

A year ago today.

It's so hard to believe a year ago today I was on my way to the hospital full of hope for a recovery. I remember driving hoping to see her sitting up in her hospital bed and seeing her beautiful blue eyes looking back at me. But that was not the case. A few hours passed and she was gone. Our beautiful baby girl was on her way to heaven. We still miss her everyday. It gets a bit easier to handle as time passes by and now with the upcoming arrival of a new baby it helps make it a bit easier. I have ahd several "strange" occurances in the last year to let me know she is still a big force in our lives. My dog Zoe is a prime example. Sara knew how upsetting it was for me to give our dog Diamond away when we moved into our old house. She always thought it wasn't fair but like me tried to understand that she is with DH's aunt and will be well taken care of. Diamond is crrently spoiled and loving life in Michigan. It's hard to give away a part of the family. Well I have wanted another dog for a long time and figured not until we move. Then along came Zoe. She was a surprise anniversary present from DH. Zoe is our first "Yellow/blond" lab mix. We have always had black labs. I remember calling my sister to tell her our news and to ask to borrow the small crate from her. She asked me if I had named the puppy yet and I said no we have no idea.. she said how about Zoe? She also said she had no clue where that name came from it just popped in her head. Saraboo in action. :) Last weekend I was collecting some t-shirts from my sister so I can make her a t-shirt quilt made up of Sara's t-shirts. I turned around and there is a framed poster of "yellow lab puppies" and mom said oh that one looks like Zoe. Then I knew - Zoe was meant to be my baby. Thanks Sara! I'm hoping to get your quilt done for your mom for Christmas! I think even tho she is going to have this new baby she is going to need your quilt to have a memory of you to hold also.
I have never made a quilt like this so I hope Sara will be my little helper on that project. I feel her around me alot, she was a one of a kind girl and I will miss her until we meet in heaven. I also had an ironic twist. The knitting needles I helped Sara purchase are now mine. My sister doesn't need them or want them so I have them now and the yarn she had just purchased to start a scarf for the nursing home. That yarn I think will be used to make a few square for lapgahns toward Sara Smiles Project. That way I can spread her love around into more than one lapghan. I have been lax in the last few months on the Sara Smiles Project. Lost my mojo. I'm hoping to get it moving again. Missing her helps to get me moving. I have a bunch of squares to get sewn together. I think I will start with that to get me motivated again.

New Lapghans!

Last Monday my hubby and I were going to the "old house" to pack up some of the last stuff at the house. We found a box on the front porch. It was two beautiful lapghans, pictured above. These were donated by Nancy L. from Sterling, MA. Thank you Nancy! They are beautiful!